Goldmine Gutted

The future never quite feels like the future when you get there. The past on the other hand always feels nostalgic when looking back. These grand visions of future conquests usually lay waste fully in ruins in the past eventually. Everyone has plans for the future and everyone has a past. Its the middle, that truth, that defines an individuals reality. Whats my reality? I know where I was, what I wanted, and where I am. It's not quite what I had planned but who knows what the future holds? Ill know when I get there.

Mahalo 2009

J

Cold Mirror

Something Against You

So I lost my fantasy football league by 3 freaking points. Way to go vikings, thanks for totally screwing up the OT today.

Headed to a showcase in the morning. Long day ahead. Trying to get my remaining free agents jobs. Im hopeful I can finish all that by spring training obviously. Im feeling well thank god. Just busy which is awesome.

I love Joy Division and LCD Sound System.

I had a pretty good day with an old friend today. It's nice she's doing well.

Nothing major today

Mahalo

J

All Of My Friends

A couple of days away from 2010. Has it been 20 years? I remember being 8 years old in 1990. My father bought me a pack of 1990 topps baseball cards. Those goofy future looking cards with such memorable rookies as Paul Coleman and Willie Ansley.... I got a 5000k card of Nolan Ryan and the love affair with baseball was cemented. My dad has always been there for me and if there is one thing I can take from this wretched decade is that I know I can always count on my dad. The dynamics have shifted as I have gotten older and I want him to know that I too will always be there for him no matter what. I mean when everythings gone and theres nothing left at least we have each other. I am thankful everyday that I get to go to work with my dad. It's been by far one of the greatest experiences in my entire life.

Another day on the road tomorrow. Headed to a showcase with bossman. Fun Fun.

Will keep writing until I stop.

Mahalo

J

Passing Through The Night

Another long day of work at the office but I cant complain. Finished 15 wonderful contracts with a very prominant glove company. I cant thank this company to be named later for all they have done for our guys. Its a special moment no matter what level a player is at to get a glove contract and I am just happy beyond words that IM the guy who gets to help make these small perks a reality. I try to make sure that I take care of all the off the field headaches so all my guys have to do is go out there and play ball. Im glad I got these done before the new year. My goal is to finish as much as possible before 2010 rolls around.

Also bought some dvds today. 500 days of summer which was my favorite movie of the year, Something,Something,Something Dark Side, season 1 of eastbound and down, and two movies I hated but I wanted to love, District 9 and Extract. Hopefully the 2nd time around is better or best buy will be getting them back asap.

Thats it for now

J

Clearing Gutters Getting By Looking Ahead The Day You Die

Id been meaning to add this to the blog for a while plus its a shameless attempt to add posts here...... so here we go


Now I've justified this to myself in all sorts of ways. It wasn't a big deal, just a minor betrayal. Or we'd outgrown each other, you know, that sort of thing. But let's face it, I ripped them off - my so called mates. But Begbie, I couldn't give a shit about him. And Sick Boy, well he'd done the same to me, if he'd only thought of it first. And Spud, well okay, I felt sorry for Spud - he never hurt anybody. So why did I do it? I could offer a million answers - all false. The truth is that I'm a bad person. But, that's gonna change - I'm going to change. This is the last of that sort of thing. Now I'm cleaning up and I'm moving on, going straight and choosing life. I'm looking forward to it already. I'm gonna be just like you. The job, the family, the fucking big television. The washing machine, the car, the compact disc and electric tin opener, good health, low cholesterol, dental insurance, mortgage, starter home, leisure wear, luggage, three piece suite, DIY, game shows, junk food, children, walks in the park, nine to five, good at golf, washing the car, choice of sweaters, family Christmas, indexed pension, tax exemption, clearing gutters, getting by, looking ahead, the day you die.

Sea Change

I'm good but I guess I always am. Im tired, but Im guess I always am too. I had a pretty successful and thoughtful year but I am going to rant about that at a later date. We lost some things this year but gained even more. Works hard but so is concrete. The game is what we love anyway right? This is not for everyone. Not everyone is meant to understand. If you're not on the inside you're lost. And if you're lost, well, go home and leave me alone. Everything is good. Everything has been absolutely terrific lately. More baseball later. I just want to get to 7 more posts before the years done. RIP Brittany Murphy, you were terrific in Sin City and 8 mile and Im sure 1000 other things I never have seen. You family and fans will miss you.

Mahalo

J