Stay Cool

Super Bowl was fun. I went to a ton of events this week. Moves Magazine super bowl party, Michael Irvin's party at the hard rock, probably could have hit the GQ party, and had a chance for the espn one as well. I got to meet Mitch Richmond, TO, Donovan McNabb, Brady Quinn , Jevon Kearse, Josh Cribbs, Ludacris and tons of other guys from the world of sports at the event. It was even more fun because I finally got to take my dad to an event finally.

Finishing up a bunch of end orsement deals before the season. Booked all my travel arrangements for ST. Cant wait.

Exhausted beyond belief balancing work and my life. Its a chore for sure.

All in all Im all in all

J

This Is Just A Business

Sometimes things happen in your career that shock you no matter what you've seen or been through before. Last night I had dinner with 10 or so of my clients. Everyone that was in town showed up except for one player who I had signed a couple years ago. Over the last two seasons I felt that I had cultivated a pretty good relationship with him. I felt especially close to him because here was a guy that was alot like me. He had a reputation not unlike myself but if you took the time to get to know him he really is a tremendously awesome person. I learned something valuable today. I picked up said player from the field today to meet for lunch. I had a horrible feeling about this going into it but it didnt make the news any easier to hear. I was getting fired. This player handled the situation as classy and as professionally as anyone Ive dealt with in my entire career. I was shocked to say the least because I thought my relationship with him transcended baseball. I was wrong. Very wrong. This is a sobering reminder that no matter how much you care about a player or how much you think you're helping them there are still things out there that can get you fired. This player voiced some concerns, we talked, but I wish to god he said something sooner than just letting me go today. I teared up during several points in the conversation and you know what? Thats a good thing. I really cared about this guy but in the end it didnt matter to him. In his eyes, and he has every right to feel this way, I just wasnt right for him. I respect him for being honest with me but I am saddened that our relationship is damaged forever.
Theres the rub. The sobering cold reminder of everything that everyone always tells me. It's still a business. This is just a business. So, if the player is reading this, I'm sorry that you feel I let you down. I make no apologies for my actions or anything I have done that has gotten me to this point. If I didnt do things exactly the way I did them, I wouldnt be where I am at today. That doesnt mean going forward Im the same person I was a couple years ago. All last year I worked hard to shake any labels I may have had. I worked hard to show people I was doing things instead of coasting on potential. I think I have done a pretty good job of getting to where I need to be with my career. Im proud that I have 11 40 man guys, Im proud I have 5 25 man guys. I am proud of everything I have done so far.
All I can do now is keep doing what Im doing and hope that the guys I have will appreciate everything I try to do for them because god knows I appreciate all of them for sticking with me. I thank god every day for every single player I represent because I give up my life for them. They are my world, they are my life, and without them Im nothing and there is nothing I could do to ever fully repay these guys for giving me the life I have today. You win some you lose some but if you fully give up your soul for your job like I have you will never feel bad when things go wrong because deep down you know the problem is not with you.

Thats all

J

If You Ever Need Anything Please Dont Hesitate To Ask Someone Else First

What a disappointment. I cant believe NBC ended conan..... This topic has been beat to death by everyone, but I just wanted to add my 2 cents. Growing up as a product of divorce, Conan was a staple of my childhood late nights. The most dependable and funny TV friend a kid could ever want I can only hope he comes back in 6-7 months stronger than ever on FX or Fox or wherever he may end up. Pimpot 5000, Masterbating Bear, the year 2000 skits...... I still vividly remember being in the hospital ER at one point watching Andy Richters final show. Who knew a decade later we'd lose Conan too. Alls well that ends okay I suppose. I know he'll be back.

Its the busy season. Traveling traveling traveling. I head to Arizona soon. Then Canada again, then orlando, then ft myers, then tampa, then everywhere. My period of "normality" is about to end. Its been a nice adjustment but I miss the gring. I miss the dirt and I miss being on the road. I think not being around baseball everyday gives me a strong appreciation for it when I have it. It's a cycle. I love it. I hate it. Then I cant live without it. Its just how it goes.

2010 is a big year for me personally. I know everythings going to be fine despite everyones best efforts to the contrary. Oh well for them. Ill see them all on the trail

Peace Love Empathy

J

Just A Twisted Kid Never Learned To Ride

Been a bit sick lately. Trying to get back to 100 percent. Nothing real eventful to post. Hopefully something good comes up soon eh?

Mahalo

J

Everything Is Okay.

All is well in the universe. 2010 is here. Sorry for the lack of updates. Been distracted with work and life lately. Will post regularly again soon

Thanks

J

Goldmine Gutted

The future never quite feels like the future when you get there. The past on the other hand always feels nostalgic when looking back. These grand visions of future conquests usually lay waste fully in ruins in the past eventually. Everyone has plans for the future and everyone has a past. Its the middle, that truth, that defines an individuals reality. Whats my reality? I know where I was, what I wanted, and where I am. It's not quite what I had planned but who knows what the future holds? Ill know when I get there.

Mahalo 2009

J

Cold Mirror