How To Disappear Completely

I feel like writing again after a long hiatus. I have had a ton of things happen and I havent had any outlets to get stuff out. I have a lot going on and a lot of ideas. I have my health issues and my family has had its share of problems as well. Its hard dealing with very private issues so publicly. I hate it and I wish so much of it would just go away. I'm happy to be as relevant as ever in my profession since that means all my clients are playing well. I've had to deal with a lot of jealousy from other agents in my age bracket since the majority of them are struggling to stay afloat while I keep on trucking. It's a lot easier to write about being an agent than actually being one, just ask the players which they would prefer, a guy willing to grind it out and do all the leg work or someone who just talks about the moral high ground in lieu of actually doing any actual work. There are a ton of frauds at the bottom of the industry but once you get past that you get the sharks at the top. I'm just trying to stay afloat a little bit longer since I am almost at the finish line. I am so thankful I have my clients in my life because without those relationships I would have no one right now outside of a few family members and a couple of good friends. I love these guys for everything they have allowed me to do with my life and I am so thankful I can still get up each morning to do this job. Maybe I'll disappear completely again after this post, maybe Ill write again tomorrow. I dont know anymore. All I know is that this is going to be a special year for me professionally and if I could just get the personal life on par with the career Ill have accomplished everything Ive ever wanted to do and that is all anyone could ever ask for, my health be damned.

Mahalo

J-

Wont You Believe It Its Just My Luck

Sept. came early for Taylor Green. Very happy for a very special young man from a very special family. Ive known the Greens for 6 years now and I can say today is one of the more special days in my career. Every time one of my clients achieves his dream of playing in the major leagues its a great moment but when you're with someone as long as Ive been with Taylor it adds a little something extra to the moment. I remember all the struggles and sacrifices he has mad going through the minors going from late round draft after thought to minor league player of the year to major leaguer. What an impressive situation.

Can't wait til 9/1

Mahalo

Nice Life

Ill get to this soon.

The Only Time I Miss You Is Every Single Day

It seems that real life has gotten in the way of my writing ambitions and for the 12 readers that follow this I am very sorry. Ive always enjoyed writing here. I hope someday to be super active like I was in the past. I hope deep down I didnt stop writing because I became so jaded that I didnt think this mattered. If anything for a time it always mattered to me and then one day.....boom it was gone.

Work has its usual ups and downs. Had another guy promoted to the big leagues yesterday. Thats 5 total +8 40 man guys. Not bad for a one man band.

I made a very conscious decision to tone it down this year. I dont know why but in retrospect it seems like a very poor decision. I am going to do my best to really write as much as I can on here. Its been a tough time personally lately but as noted professionally Im the best ive ever been.

If anyone wants to reach me I can still be found at JoshuaKusnick@aol.com

Mahalo

J

Tallahassee

Hello again. Im writing from the road. I was just in KC now I am in SF and then I am heading home. This is turning into a very interesting year so far. I finally feel like I have gotten close to where I need to be with respect to my career. I'm doing things Ive never been in a position to do thus far and it is a very exciting time. I have the right players and teams are paying attention. Its honestly quite nice. I have done so much work preparing statistical analysis for the offseason in hopes of jump starting some negotiations and the response Ive gotten thus far is positive. I cant wait to see what the finished product looks like.

With all the joys of professional success it honestly has been hard to balance the personal life. I work so much I have left so little time to myself. I have my droid phone with a working old school NES system which keeps me busy, I have my very small group of friends, my family and my clients and thats it. If anyone ever wants to enter the industry be prepared to give up your life to this job. Only after you make, if you ever make it at all, will you have the opportunity to build up the family/personal life. I am really looking forward to that.

No real music news. Just a startling revelation that there are teenagers out there who believe Dave Grohl is a vastly more talented musician than kurt cobain was. Ugh. I shudder to think.

I think when I get home I may take a trip back to fsu. Its been way too long and I have the urge to relieve some of my college life. Im sure Ill write about it when it happens. I also turn 29 may 3rd. My last birthday of my 20's. I cant freaking believe it. Ive done alot during this decade and Ill do even more in the next.

Res Ipsa something something

J-

I'm Useless And I'm Famous

I do this every year partially to commemorate the most impactful artist of my life time and partially to mark where I am with respect to my own life each passing year. Every year I get older all this music means something a little different to me. Every year I get a little further from life and closer to death and that honestly still doesnt phase me. I still remember when I discovered Nirvana. First as a passing image at age nine, then trying to remember the worlds to heart shaped box at 12, then swallowing the entire catalog at age thirteen one year too late. The music makes me happy, the music makes me sad, the music makes me feel alive and the music makes me die. Its basic, its complex, its clear, and its hazy all at the same time and thats what makes Nirvana Nirvana. I am actually getting more annoyed now these days hearing that cobains legacy has been enhanced by his early demise. If anything his death muddled what would have been an incredibly clear legacy. He was the last John Lennon since John Lennon died and anyone who argues that is a fool. Anyone who gets caught up in the semantics of not understanding the lyrics or arguing power chords arent music are simply no in on the joke. They're late to a party that died in 1994 while everyone else already RSVP'd. This is an energy that is trapped in a generation and for a few brief moments in time someone let it out and that will never happen again. All were left with is all that energy thats still buried inside all of us who were around to witness those times still waiting for someone else to come around and let a little bit more of it out from inside of us.

Thank you

J-

Divine And Bright

I missed Feb completely didnt want to totally ignore march. The season is about to start and I have some awesome new work opportunities. Im grinding away same as ever just finding less and less time to write which isnt cool lets be honest. Id be amazed if anyone even stumbled by this blog anymore but this blog has always been a microcosm of some sorts. I started doing it just for myself really then a few people picked up on it, then some more, then some more, then came the ridicule and the scorn, then some followers then I just torched the whole thing until nothing was left. This was my In Utero, a complete rejection of what everyone wanted and people still liked it and the only way to get it back really was to neglect it. I feel like I can start writing again if I want to and I might actually take myself up on that. And if anyone is still left here there will be a reward at the end of the rainbow. Maybe Ill write something awesome someday or maybe Ill just make a pair of BK Knights available as a prize (oh how I miss double dare) who knows? But as for all my hollow promises with regard to my blog I think I really will try to write more. Probably less about my career which will shut off a lot of people (all 6 of you) but who knows? I always used to write what was on my head without regard for anything and it would be nice to go back to that place. Ill be having my yearly Cobain post coming up in a week. I hate writing that but this year will be a doozy for that story. I was in Seattle last june so Ill have the chance finally to opine about it.

Peace Love Empathy to everyone