Jane, Go Back

I am always tired. The road does it to you. It's out of your bed and into your head all the time. You find ways to get past it though. Whatever it takes you know. Whether it be dedication or fear, there is always some driving force pushing me to be great. Thats all I think about and all I strive to do. I hate losing. To anyone at anything. Im hypercompetitive. Some could see it as a fault but I really dont. There is nothing wrong with a divine love of winning. I do not take losing well. Not at all. Ive been fighting my whole life with everything so why should this be any different? I beat another agent today for now. It felt good. It felt really good. He blew a save and I shut the door. It never ends. No time for celebrating though. On to tomorrow. Hopefully Ill see him in person to congratulate him for trying. I won this round. Good luck

J

Sweetness I Was Only Joking

In Tennessee. Thats it. Enjoy video.

These Days

One week til I turn 27, one more week and I have officially lived as long as kurt cobain (minus a hundred or so days) Ive always been curious to what Id feel when I hit that point in my life. Not young, not really old, the transitional point of life so to speak. It's going to be interesting next week. Ill be seeing family, Ill be seeing friends, Ill be writing and Ill be working. It is what it is and its been a long time coming not nearly soon enough. On the road again tomorrow morning. Tennessee here I come.

Mahalo

J

I Only Wrote Tonight To Post This Video

I am solely writing this blog so I could post the attached video. I finalized my travel plans and am going to Orlando wed, back thursday, then sunday off to Chattanooga as earlier noted. The guys all seem to be doing exceedingly well. Brae Wrights rehab is going well, as is Taylor Greens. Chris Mobley should be back soon and Lorenzo Cain played in his first game of the season tonight.

Talking about hot starts, how about Trayvon Robinson?? My god he deserves it.

Ive been a bit under the weather lately and that has been a drag. I probably shouldnt be traveling as much as Ive been but you have a job and you have to do it no matter what. No excuses and only some complaints some of the time. It's not bad and it could be worse. Id probably enjoy alot more if this if I was feeling better but Im fortunate that im well enough to work.

Thats the line

Enjoy the greatest video Ive ever posted

Hold It In Your Gut

Just got back from Orlando. Saw team canada. It's a yearly occasion for me at this point. Booked a flight to TN tonight. Going to see Huntsville play in Chattanooga for 4 days. Looking fwd to being healthy. Being on the road you feel like you're accomplishing something instead of just sitting at a desk stuck on your phone. There is a general sense of worth watching your guys play. It's hard to explain.... or maybe im just really tired.

Interviewed with a couple of families and talked to scouts all weekend. Once again, looking fwd to the draft starting then ending.

Same as it ever was.

Mahalo

J

The Day The Whole World Went Away

Much to do. Much to say. Much to see. Much to think about. Much too much. Around Later to edit post. Will say that I noticed saved by the bell college movie 4 part disaster was on tbs this morning. Newsflash ted turner, nobody f'king cares about sbtb the college years much less a michael bay like abortion on film like a saved by the bell 2 hour wedding movie. Im a die hard of the show, and even I couldnt swallow that mess. Vikas, this post was for you.

J

You're Always Ahead Of The Pack

Its been insanely cold here in Indiana. Wet, cold, rainy. Last nights game should have been rained out. Had it been I could have seen Lebron James. Alas poor Yorick I knew him well........ The rain got so bad in the 6th inning the stadium emptied and the game didnt end til 1130 pm. During the 7th-9th innings the in stadium camera crews got so desperate to show fans on the jumbo tron the kept re-using the 6 people left in the crowd, tragically myself included. After the game, a couple of fans recognized me and were beyond nice. It never stops getting weird.... Ended up at a run down steak and shake after the game, came back to the hotel and checked the box scores and finally passed out.

Lorenzo Cain had his first in game action yesterday in Arizona. The plan is to get him 20 AB's before shipping off to Huntsville (so Ive heard). It was his birthday yesterday so obviously that was a pretty good present. Everyone is doing so well lately Im absolutely proud of everyone.

Woke up insanely early and watched 4 awesome episodes of Good Morning Miss Bliss while hammering away at my lap top. Good Morning Miss Bliss eventually became saved by the bell and now everyone reading this is substantially dumber for knowing that terrible fact.


Thats all, back home tomorrow.


J

They Say That Ill Recover My Love Of Her Once In While But I Dont Know I Dont Think So

Been a bit under the weather lately, sorry for the slow start to the season on my blog. Im making my 1st road trip in about 5 hours.... headed to Indianapolis to see Mike Brantley for a few days. Im still somewhat sick (nothing contagious) but I have to keep on plugging or else somebody else will..... Everyone we have is off to a terrific start thus far thank god.

Taylor Green is massively ahead of schedule and hopefully will be back by the end of the month or early may at worst. Thats on the list of very good things to happen lately. Several players got endorsement deals with a batting glove company which was a nice bonus to start the year as well.

I know this is the start of the busy season. I fully embrace it because this is what I signed up for. Rain or shine, sickness or health I have a job to do. I embrace it because I would rather be doing this than anything else in the world. I have a tremendous responsibility to all my clients that trust me with their careers to give it my all 24 hours a day and thats what I intend to do. I'm ready

thats all today


Mahalo

J

Three Chords And The Truth

Every generation has their icon. Mine was Kurt Cobain. It's been 15 fucking years already but every single second I hear his music I think back to when I was younger discovering Nirvana for the first time and how as soon as I heard them I knew instantly everything was different. Nothing has been the same ever since and I often wonder what my life would have been like had I not found Nirvana. I miss the man I never knew and I miss the music I never got to hear. They say every so often someone comes along and gives the world three chords and the truth.... See you in Nirvana Cobain. Mahalo

My essay from last april

Today is the 14 year anniversary of Kurt Cobain's death (Actually 4/5 but 4/8/94 is when his body was found) Here is a piece I wrote this year on Nirvana......

To me, Nirvana represented total artistic and creative freedom no matter what the cost. Kurt Cobain was able to achieve what millions of confused kids were never quite able to fully articulate. Kurt gave a voice and a face to an entire movement he himself was a part of. We were the jilted generation growing up with parents who grew up as hippies and ended up as corporate wall street frauds in federal prison. All the positive momentum of the 60's soon gave way to the gluttony and total failure of the 80's. When Nirvana first hit the scene it changed everything. It was okay to care, it was okay to be different, it was okay to be yourself, and most importantly it was okay to just exist. Life didn't have to have a purpose as long as you were just a good person. Kurt ended a generation of excess and he did his best to create positive change in the world. Women and Gay rights, musical and artistic freedom, everything the man did seemed to have a purpose. Although it seems totally evident now that Cobain himself did not appreciate his own gifts that he gave to the world, I will never forget the impact he made on my life. Cobain's art just made me feel more comfortable in my own skin. And although I am a complete corporate sellout like the people Cobain rallied against, I still can appreciate everything Nirvana and Cobain were. Nirvana and Kurt Cobain changed absolutely everything and I will always miss and lament the art and music Kurt never got to make because he left all of us way too soon.


Mahalo

J


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