This Is Just A Fond Farewell To A Friend

It's over. All this stuff. All these things. Everything thats happened this cycle. Over.Done. Overdone. To paraphrase a hero this foul year of Our Lord, two-thousand-eight. Im scared of 2009. I have long dreaded the year I was to become 27. Heroes have died at that age, better men and women than I. Kurt Cobain for one obvious one. I dont waste time thinking about the future because it will soon become a thing of the past. I know there will be hurdles, I know there will be joy, and as always pain and angst. The goods and bads are constant and sharp. It's the only thing you can rely on in this life that everything keeps going with or without you. You hang on as long as you can until the train conductor finally says enough and kicks you off the fucking train with papers left behind, drinks to fill, and parties to attend. Life is what happens when you're too disoriented to notice whats going on. I embrace it sometimes I loathe it the others but I guess the end sum is Im still here for something. I hope 2009 is great for the people I care about and maybe even a few of the others I dont. If they were gone who would I have to hate?

Peace Love and a World of empathy

Jay Eh? Kay

What Else Could I Write? I Dont Wanna Fight.

In life people make choices then they have to deal with the consequences of their decisions. Ive made mostly good choices in my life to this point. Thats how I've gotten this far without going crazy. I've survived 40 major surgeries, I survived college, I survived high school, and now I'm surviving baseball. Thats what I do. I survive. Nobody is going to tell me I cant do something and eventually in the end I usually get my way. Every so often what one thinks is a good choice becomes a good choices with a price. There is a cost benefit to everything in this world and even choices that seem good can end up bad. You try your best to resolve the paradox between choice and choicessness but in the end no matter how hard you try someone is a loser and someone is upset. Sometimes you're both and sometimes you're neither. Is personal happiness or the idea of personal happiness worth the cost of getting there? Is it sometimes better to sacrafice your own wants in life for the betterment of others? Is it sometimes enough being a good friend if you're sad on the inside? Who knows? Who cares? I obviously have made choices in my life some in the past some very recent that have been good, bad, or just dumb. Experience comes with age but somethings you can only learn by doing. I hope I have made enough good choices in life to overcome the bad ones. Especially ones that affect other people that I have cared for.

Peace Love Empathy

J

I Am Become Death The Destroyer Of Worlds

All is well from the trail. Im busy. With everything. Life, work, everything. Trying to listen to radiohead, trying to listen to nirvana. Meeting with companies, meeting with clients. Setting up travel plans, setting up deals. Somewhere inbetween my job I am trying to have a life. Back with my girlfriend (thank god) and I am balanced again. Nothing overly substantial to report just wanted to write a short something.

Here is the interview I did in the M.J.S that was published today. I am humbled by this and a bit embarrassed but it's out there so may as well post it here.

Hope all is well

J

http://www.jsonline.com/sports/brewers/36471284.html

Cornering the market
Josh Kusnick does not represent every player in the Brewers' farm system. It only seems like it.

At one time or another, Kusnick has represented 18 of the Brewers' minor-league players. Some were traded away, but the vice president of Double Diamond Sports Management still has 13 players in Milwaukee's system.

That group includes some of the organization's top prospects, including outfielder Lorenzo Cain, third baseman Taylor Green, shortstop Brent Brewer and pitchers Jeremy Jeffress, Omar Aguilar, Alex Periard and Luis Pena.

"It's really a unique situation," said Kusnick, who founded his Florida-based agency with his father, Howard, in 2002. "We have players in many other organizations but nothing even close to the number we have with the Brewers."

Only 26, Kusnick accumulated his stable of Brewers' prospects in large part via word of mouth among those players. It began in 2005 with the signing of Cain and outfielder Darren Ford, who was traded to San Francisco in July in the Ray Durham deal.

The large number of clients represented by Kusnick allows the Brewers to do one-stop shopping in contract talks and other matters. On the flip side, Kusnick has to work hard to keep his players happy because it's easy for them to compare notes.

"We minimalize conflicts, as best we can," said Kusnick, who regularly stays up until 3 a.m. during the season so players on the West Coast can call him after games if necessary.

"I have to work harder because I have the stigma of being so young. But they know I'll look out for them and do everything I can to help them. We're available 24 hours a day. We don't promise anything we can't deliver.

"We've always had a great working relationship with the Brewers. They've done a good job of pushing their prospects (through the system). Some of our guys have been the youngest players in their leagues."

Kusnick found himself in an interesting situation last July after the Brewers acquired CC Sabathia from Cleveland for top prospect Matt LaPorta and three other minor-leaguers, one of which was "to be named later." Word soon leaked out that outfielder Michael Brantley and Green, both clients of Kusnick, were on that short list.

As it turned out, the Indians got to make the selection if Milwaukee made the playoffs and the Brewers had the call if they didn't. After Sabathia pitched the Brewers to the National League wild-card berth, Cleveland selected Brantley.

"(Brantley and Green) were calling me just about every day, wanting to know if I had heard anything," said Kusnick. "But they both handled it very well. It was a drain mentally, but it didn't affect their play."

As for the possibility that one day he might represent half of the Brewers' big-league roster, Kusnick laughed and said, "I try not to think that far ahead. It's a nice thought. I just want it to work out for our players."
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Red Wine And Sleeping Pills Help Me Get Back To Your Arms

No matter how much I ignore the obvious or state my supposed disdain for it, baseball balances me. When you break through everything that I have to do to perform my job, it's the game that balances me. The game makes me happy, the game makes sense, and the game is safe. No matter where you're at it's always familiar and everyone knows where to find it. It's peace and it's an escape. At the heart of the monster lies the joy. People come and go, places change, and lives stop but in the end the game lives on to give a sense of familiarity to everyone who wants to take part.

It's the normal things I think I miss more than anything. Friends are starting their lives, getting married, growing up and being normal. Ive mentioned it before here, I think thats what I miss the most. I miss the idea that one day Im going to grow up and have a normal life. The life, the wife, the house, the 9-5, that dream is dead to me completely. It's like sometimes Im almost living someone elses dream and I cant trade back. Im thankful some of the time but I wonder all of the time. Im on the road constantly (which is a major point on the blog) and I dont ever have time for anything but the job. Im married to it, it's my wife. (Life is a bitch but Im sure glad the bitch aint divorce me, NAS).

I think Im overly sore tonight because I had to end another relationship. I thought this time I found a really good one. I absolutely loved talking to her above anything else because I really felt like she got me. I had a genuine and deep connection with her because of some of the things we both went through. I fell in love with her because I felt for the first time in a very long long time this girl actually got me and I think she felt the same because I think I really got her. I tried hard to be 100 percent open this time and I gave it my all but it wasnt meant to be. Sometimes no matter how much you care about someone or how hard you try to make things work, the other person really doesnt understand what they've done to you or how much they actually hurt you even if it wasnt on purpose. She really really hurt me bad this time. I dont even think she has any idea but it is what it is. I think this one is a wonderful and beautiful human being. Probably one in a billion to say the least. I am bitterly disappointed that it didnt work out but there is only so much one can take without just saying it's time. I dont know if Ill ever talk to her again but I hope so. So Im single again. Fun! (sarcasm)

Sorry for the personal rant tonight. It is what it is.

Peace Love Empathy

J

Wide Awake At 4 In The Morning Killing Time On The Blue Highway

Back to basics and back to baseball. The rule 5 draft was yesterday and mercifully brought a close to the winter meetings at the bellagio. I'm happy it's over to be honest with you. 18 hour days are never fun even in baseball. The ballroom was packed and this years rule 5 went substantially faster than last years. One of my clients was selected in the big league phase while three players swapped teams in the minor league phase. I got to talk to some old friends and important people in the room during and after the draft. The media was there in full force and got to see some very good people I havent seen in a long time.

Several members of the national media came up to me and introduced themselves to me. "Oh you're Josh Kusnick, Im happy to meet you" Why anyone would be happy to meet me is beyond me. I'm still nobody and havent done anything remotely substantial yet, so to me, it's a bit premature, but hey Ill take it. It's so bizarre having people you have never met in your life know who you are. I dont think Ill ever get used to that.

Which brings me to................I did an interview with Tom Haudricourt on tuesday, it will be in the MJS on sunday (or the next sunday) and in baseball america eventually. I have known Tom forever and figured it was the right time to do a story with him. I've stayed out of that kind of stuff forever because after all none of this is about me. I'm not the story, it's always 100 percent about the players. Without them I'm nobody in this business. Hopefully that comes through.

Thats it, back to the real world.

Mahalo

J

I Cant Hide, No.

What to do with this blog? Some say I take things too far (I disagree) while others say I dont go far enough (too bad). I have long been fascinated with the general idea of the public eye. For all I care the public eye could go blind and I would be just the same. The idea that there is an obligation for those in the spotlight, no matter how dimly lit, owe the public "something" is absolutely beyond me. It frightens me to think what is going to happen with the rest of my career no matter how irrelevant publicly I think (or know) I am people will still demand things from me. I apologize in advance but I dont feel that I owe anybody that doesnt know me anything. I dont owe stories and I dont owe answers. I am not owned by anyone and I dont own anybody else.

Why cant things just be as they are? Why is there this incessant demand to be in the "know"? I'm in the know and let me tell you it isnt anything spectacular. It just is. Maybe it's because Im not a sports fan I dont identify with the idea of needing to know everything that goes on. I just take things as they are and deal with them. I dont fault anyone when I dont know something and if I really want to research something I do it on my own. I never demand answers from strangers and since I began this experiment I have gotten letter after letter demanding more. More clarity, more answers, more explanations, more more more! Well there isnt more. There isnt anything else. This is as good as things are going to get and it isnt going to change. Take this all for what it is or dont. Keep reading or leave me to my rantings. It's all the same to me.

I started this blog to do two things. Clear my head (check!) and help give fans a glimpse (only a glimpse) on what life is really like for someone working in the sports business without any filters. No delusions of grandeur, no idyllic love of sport, just facts as the way the unfold through my eyes. If it's not enough then I'm sorry to have disappointed but it is what it is. The fact that I discuss whatever it is I discuss here does not give people the right to harass or berate me for not giving the people what they want. I am not doing this for personal gain and I am not doing this for PR. If anything the vast majority of the PR has been negative, so there's that.

Thats the rant. I will keep this thing going for a while I would imagine. Come as you are.

J

Don't F**k Around, Man. This Is Serious. One More Hour In This Town And I'll Kill Somebody!

My last night in vegas for a while. 18 hour days every day for what seems like an eternity. Wake up at planet hollywood end up in the bellagio. Taxi to the civic center, taxi back to the bellagio, and crash into planet hollywood. Meetings with companies, meetings with teams, meetings in hallways, meetings in suites. Trades and trade shows, interviews and tv. It's one big blur and it's all happening in the Las Vegas.

Finished the majority of my work (still have two players that are free agents), did my first interview with baseball america (which will be out hopefully sunday in the MJC in milwaukee) Got good news on players, bad news on other players, finished endorsement deals, and am awaiting the rule 5 draft that is in 8 hours.

I ran into Mark Shapiro at the bellagio, introduced myself, and he said he had read my quotes/blog. A jarring experience but it is what it is. I find it amazing that anyone reads this but I guess I appreciate it. Im just writing a stream of thought trying to clear my head every so often in an attempt to deal with arguably the most bizarre career I could ever find. Strange happenings and dangerous magic appear at every corner. Im here for the long haul

See you on the road


Peace Love


J

I’ll Take A Quiet Life,A Handshake,Some Carbon Monoxide

The world series of my job, the biggest show, the finest point, the top of the mountain, the greatest joy, my highest thrill, and its only 96 hours long. Im headed to Vegas and I am going to the Winter Meetings again. It's all work and no play this time. I have no time for games, this is serious work for a serious man. I take this job seriously and I know this week is all serious. This is serious business and I am serious when I say that I will act serious the entire time I am out there. Hundreds of vendors, 30 teams, hundreds of people, and even some subhuman other agents. I will see them there and that will sum up my interaction with that group. I will charm it up, speak clearly, smile, dress well, talk fast, be smart, have lots of energy and most importantly I will get the job done. I will go out there and achieve every goal I have set and I will best every milestone I have already done. This will be a special year for a special agency and a special group of clients. 3 hours until I have to wake up. See you at the rule 5 draft.

Mahalo

J

And I Forget Just Why I Taste Oh Yeah I Guess It Makes Me Smile

Javier Brito signed with the Seattle as did Mel Stocker. Chad Blackwell is an Angel and Im working hard to get a couple other guys free agent deals. Handling the offseason as well as can be expected. Winter Meetings is in 10 days, Vegas, my home away from home. This trip at least, Tao, JET and Ghost Bar will all wait. Work is the priority. 16 hour days, no sleep, tireless work, and nothing but meetings and phone calls, bad food, bad tv, snoring, sleeping on couches, wearing a tie, drinking walgreens vitamin water, and swallowing about 500 suppliments. I cant freaking wait. Trying to write more so this one will be short.

Mahalo

J

Skin The Sun Fall Asleep

You learn quickly the things you're good at in life. Whether it be sports, math, science, speaking etc... you learn fast and you stick with them to see how far each respective skill can take you. I can talk and I can write. Im good at alot of things but sometimes it's the things I fail at, with shocking regularity, that I want more than anything. You give up many things to do this job. The idea of a family, the idea of a normal life, the idea that you could just stop at any given time and just say "forget this, Im doing something else". I love my job, but sometimes the things I miss out on do hurt. It's constant and sharp but sadly, and I dont know what this says about me, I wouldnt really change a thing about my life. I wish certain things were more of a part of it, but generally I am happy. It's interesting trying to put together a personal life to go with my job, but I try hard. I have had girlfriends and I even almost got married once but it takes a special kind of woman to understand this job. Im thankful for all the women out there that actually put up with people like me that work in sports. You deserve far more credit than you get and Im saying thank you right here, right now before I forget for another 365 days.

Have a good thursday vacation.

Mahalo

J

Leave You Where I Found You, I Figured You Out

Another exhausting day. Players returned home from the fall league, working on endorsements, making calls for free agents and preparing for the winter meetings. I have literally not slept all that well for the last few weeks preparing for that trip but all the preparation will make it worth it.

Got to pour over the rule 5 protection lists. One major surprise for me at least, but all in all what I expected to see.

Bourne Ultimatum is finally on Hbo. Thank god.

Light night, Im tired.

Mahalo

J

This is a song Elliott Smith gave to Mary Lou Lord

Don't Complicate My Piece Of Mind While I'm Balancing My Past

I finally got through my password issues and can now officially start blogging again (time permitted) This is an exciting and time consuming time for any agent worth their salt but then again there are fools in every field. Then again, the good Dr. Thompson always said "He that is taught only by himself has a fool for a master.” Moving on. I am dealing with Free Agency, preparing for the winter meetings in Las Vegas (I cant believe that this is a good idea, prepare for some alcohol induced trades)and everything else that I do every day of the week. I signed another Brewers prospect from the Fall League beating out many other "established" agents in addition to getting ready for Thursday, the day 40 man rosters are set. We'll see what happens, but we did have a Yankee client added to their roster this month.

I just moved to Ft. Lauderdale with my dear friend from high school. It's got a movie theater vibe to it. I have always collected signed movie posters and have proudly displayed my signed posters from.... Pulp Fiction, Memento, The Big Lebowski, Gangs of New York, 21 Grams, The Dark Knight (ledger is on it) Chasing Amy, Sin City, Reservoir Dogs, and 28 Days Later. Watch all these movies NOW if you havent seen them.

I got to talk to Barry Melrose former head coach of the TB Lightening the day before he got fired and had one of the most bizarre exchanges of all time. I'm ESPN's John Buccigross's agent. Bucci and Melrose worked together on NHL2NIGHT. I told Melrose when I met him I was John's agent to which he replied...."You must be a miracle worker since John still has a job." I called Bucci and let him know what Melrose said to which he replied...."Melrose will get fired before I do!" Well 24 hours later Melrose was in fact fired and Bucci still has a job. I cant help but feel responsible. Or not.

Also got picked to GM a historical fantasy baseball team for seamheads.com I have no idea what the hell I'm doing but Im in good company though I failed in an epic fashion selecting the marlins/drays

http://www.seamheads.com/league/html/ownerdirectory.html is the link to the league.

Thats about it,


I found this amazing cover of my favorite song on earth so take it for what its worth. I have no clue who this guy is but he nailed it.

She'll Come Back As Fire To Burn All The Liars And Leave A Blanket Of Ash On The Ground

I just bought the new Charles Cross book Cobain Unseen and I couldnt feel anymore invasive if I tried while flipping through it. I have long been an admirer of Kurt Cobains' creative vision and have always been curious about the motivations behind most of his art. Holding this book, especially after reading Heavier Than Heaven and his Journals, I felt like I was committing the ultimate act of betrayal towards a man I never really actually knew. I am no better off knowing what I know now about this man. I wish I had come to this realization sooner, perhaps if everyone just left him alone he'd still be here today. I also started to read Gonzo, the Hunter S. Thompson oral history book written by his friends. A true American Hero that the world still misses to this day. I wish he'd have stuck around to comment on this election cycle but such is life and a man has a right to leave on his own terms. I have always believed that.

On a baseball note, just got back from a week in the fall league and now Im watching high schoolers in Jupiter. It's a strange job but someone has to do it. On a separate note, I hate every agent who isnt myself or my father. Next time one of them has a chance to talk to me I would hope they would think long and hard about it. It's a waste of time and air to talk to a competitor tor and no greater knowledge can be extracted from the interaction. I hate them all because they are all the same. I never ever want to be confused with them and I dont think I ever will for better or for worse.

On a music note (nobody reads this for music but whatever) One of my most beloved singers Jeff Mangum of Neutral Milk Hotel showed up after 10 some odd years and performed live again. It was only one song but one can dream.

Those are the updates. Ill be around.

Mahalo

J

The Interview

I talked for an hour, those who know me it should come as no surprise. No major failures beyond my failed sophies choice joke. I thought it was funny.

Mahalo

J


http://www.blogtalkradio.com/TheClevelandFan/2008/10/10/Smoke-Signals-Cleveland-Fan-Live

Where Logic Cannot Intervene

The Michael Brantley/Taylor Green saga is finally over and from my stand point both players emerge as winners. Mike is in a great situation in Cleveland with a chance to reach the major leagues sometime in 2009. With the fall league roster vacancy created with the trade Lorenzo Cain (another client)heads to the fall league as well. Taylor is now in the fall league as well taking the injured Mat Gamel's spot (as earlier predicted) and I think everyone is the better for this deal. I'm just glad it's finally over.

Im headed to Arizona for some fall league work saturday and will be there for six days.

Several clients are blogging about their time in Arizona over at MILB blogs (Brewers,Angels,Marlins,Cubs. Check it out!

http://mlb.mlb.com/mlb/events/winterleagues/news/afl/blogs.jsp


Thats all for today. Ill be posting again soon.

Mahalo

J

Radio Interview Information

Here is the flyer on my interview for thursday, Ill post some trade updates after the weeks over. Off to Arizona saturday!

J

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Hey everyone, just an FYI, but Josh Kusnick (Michael Brantley's agent) will be on my radio show this Thursday at 9:30pm ET. The direct link to Thursday's show is below: www.blogtalkradio.com/TheClevelandFan/2008/10/10/Smoke-Signals-Cleveland-Fan-Live

Josh will be on for a few segments and my co-host Paul and I will ask the obvious questions pertaining to the Indians trade for Brantley and other things, and the phone lines will be open for anyone who wants to call in to speak to Josh and ask whatever they want. Phone number to call is 646-716-8012.

Michael Brantley himself is also schedule to be on, but as an FYI will not be taking calls from the fans (only his agent). As a reminder, for those that cannot listen live, the show is podcasted and can be downloaded and listened to at anytime by visiting the link I provided above or at www.blogtalkradio.com/theclevelandfan .

Hope many of you tune in, and remember the show is still a WIP.;-) Should be an informative hour. Josh is not what you would expect from an agent, and makes for an awesome interview. And this should be the first radio/TV interview in Cleveland for Brantley.

Please Please Tell Me Cuz I Need To Know I Need To Know Now

I have literally been writing biographies and packages for all my clients this week in preparation for the winter meetings in Vegas. It's a really time consuming task and since I'm beyond hands on I do it myself. Id rather do all the work than risk somebody else blowing something so important. Also doing a ton of prep work for our minor league free agents to be. We cant shop them until after the W.S. but like anything else, preparations must be done, and must be done right.

Interviewing potential 09 draft picks to see if anyone wants us to advise them. We had a good 08 so we should land a few good 09s. Really havent spent a ton of time on amateur stuff yet especially with all the Fall League work going on. We potentially will have 8 guys going.

Monday is decision day. This trade is almost over. It's my understanding that the medicals are being reviewed and Cle is understandably having trouble choosing the PTBNL. I still believe it's the same guy I informed several weeks ago, so we'll see if I'm right by monday.

On a separate and unrelated note....

Taylor Green is to replace Mat Gamel in the AFL but wont report until Monday. Everyone else reported today (Aguilar,Jeffress,Brantley etc......)


So like everyone else I guess we'll see.


Mahalo

J

You're Just Somebody That I Used To Know

Lots of rumors, lots of news, lots of indecision. Ive been told by my sources that a decision on the PTBNL should come sooner than later and could even be here today or tomorrow. It sure sounds like it's going to be one of my guys which I have known for months now. This trade will have a big impact on all of my guys, some of which will not be in the deal at all. If Brantley goes I believe Lorenzo Cain could potentially replace Mike in the AFL so theres that news I guess. I still can't believe Peter Gammons said it was Brantley. It very well could be Michael but nobody from either team has officially said anything yet and nobody has informed Michael (or Taylor) on the trade at all. (Except for myself, as noted, one of my clients was informed by me) So the idea that Gammons knows something that the player does not seems unlikely (if he does know, then it is what it is). I know I got a ton of calls and emails yesterday and hopefully answered them all to satisfaction and hopefully will have this all resolved this week and we can go from there.

On a separate note Jeremy Jefferss and Michael Brantley have both signed exclusive autograph contracts with PCM sports, so look out for that stuff coming real soon.

http://www.pcmsports.com/


Will talk to you all soon I am sure

Mahalo

J

Somewhere I Have Heard This Before

Havent posted anything in a while, been traveling alot, trying to get through the season. Looking forward to going to arizona for the fall league in about 10 days. Going to tampa/clearwater this weekend to catch some instructs as well. Just spent another weekend in tallahassee. God I miss college.

Working on two massive endorsement deals, and got word today that several of my clients will be blogging on the MILB website during the AFL. (Browning,Brantley,Clevenger)Luke Montz was also named the Harrisburgh Senators player of the year.

Saw that Mat Gamel got hurt during his callup which could mean that Taylor Green will be replacing him in the AFL thus running my count of AFL guys to 7. Could the cc trade finally be over with one of these days?

Saw Burn After Reading this week. Awesome.


Mahalo

Hopefully more entertaining next time




J

Does It Make You Happy You're So Strange

I just came home from a very long day at the ball park. It's been a fun week. Ive spent the last three days with Luke Montz of the Washington Nationals. Luke has been a client for a few years now and finally is getting his chance in the major leagues, and I have to say I couldnt be more proud. I got to show him around my home town this week. Ft Lauderdale is the best place in the world. He got to see miami and Las Olas and hopefully today he'll be catching for the Nats. It's been great spending time with him and his best friend who also is in town.

It's a big feeling watching your guys play in the major league. The game is the same, the people are the same (scouts, front office people etc...) and when people see you, there is this look and feeling of genuine validation. It's like I have gotten to this point in spite of everyone and I am more than willing to shock everyone that I'm here. I love being here and I'm not leaving anytime soon, so it would be in everyones best interests to get used to seeing me around these parts. I love it.

I literally just caught the last 30 minutes of Jerry Maguire. For years I have expressed my profound hatred for the film due to its trivializing effect it has had on my industry. Nothing that happens on the day to day levels of my job has anything to do with the movie, it's suspended reality I know, I know but the movie has long bothered me (except kelly preston, god I love her). However tonight, watching the end, the Rod Tidwell scene followed by the "you complete me" scene I was compelled to write something positive from the film. I think those last 30 minutes are the core of what we all want out of life as agents. My life operates at 600000 mph and I have to admit I was jealous of that last scene in the movie. Jerry, walking with his wife and new son right next to a baseball field. I think thats why I work so hard in my job. So one day, I too can have that.



Mahalo

J




cb

We'll Defuse Bombs

professionalism
Main Entry: pro·fes·sion·al·ism
Pronunciation: \-ˈfesh-nə-ˌli-zəm, -ˈfe-shə-nə-ˌli-\
Function: noun
Date: 1856
1 : the conduct, aims, or qualities that characterize or mark a profession or a professional person
2 : the following of a profession (as athletics) for gain or livelihood
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apathy
Main Entry: ap·a·thy
Pronunciation: \ˈa-pə-thē\
Function: noun
Etymology: Greek apatheia, from apathēs without feeling, from a- + pathos emotion — more at pathos
Date: 1594
1 : lack of feeling or emotion : impassiveness
2 : lack of interest or concern : indifference
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arrogant
Main Entry: ar·ro·gant
Pronunciation: \-gənt\
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English, from Latin arrogant-, arrogans, present participle of arrogare
Date: 14th century
1 : exaggerating or disposed to exaggerate one's own worth or importance often by an overbearing manner
2 : proceeding from or characterized by arrogance
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relax
Main Entry: re·lax
Pronunciation: \ri-ˈlaks\
Function: verb
Etymology: Middle English, from Latin relaxare, from re- + laxare to loosen, from laxus loose — more at slack
Date: 15th century
transitive verb
3: to deprive of energy, zeal, or strength of purpose
4: to relieve from nervous tension
2: to become less intense or severe
4: to cast off social restraint, nervous tension, or anxiety couldn't relax in crowds
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Careless
Main Entry: care·less
Pronunciation: \-ləs\
Function: adjective
Date: before 12th century
1 a: free from care : untroubled b: indifferent, unconcerned
2: not taking care
3: not showing or receiving
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Carefree
Main Entry: care·free
Pronunciation: \ˈker-ˌfrē\
Function: adjective
Date: 1621
: free from care: as a: having no worries or troubles b: irresponsible
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Joke
Main Entry: 1joke
Pronunciation: \ˈjōk\
Function: noun
Etymology: Latin jocus; perhaps akin to Old High German gehan to say, Sanskrit yācati he asks
Date: 1670
1 a: something said or done to provoke laughter; especially : a brief oral narrative with a climactic humorous twist b (1): the humorous or ridiculous element in something (2): an instance of jesting : kidding c: practical joke d: laughingstock
2: something not to be taken seriously : a trifling matter —often used in negative constructions
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Chill out people and enjoy the video

Mahalo

J

Godspeed You! Black Emperor

Been insanely busy these past two weeks. Players signing, players getting called up, scouting, the season ending, fall leagues beginning, traveling etc... I was in Huntsville,Melbourne, and Tallahassee to end my regular season. Jeremy Jeffress was named the Brewers minor league pitcher of the year as earlier noted and this Friday I am going to see Luke Montz play in the big leagues. Stephen Chapman spent a few days with me in south Florida which was terrific and I finally got two days "off" (spent at home). Congrats to Steve Clevenger who was on the fsl champion Daytona cubs.

Booking my flights to the winter meetings and the Arizona fall league.... going to push myself to buy the book "The Road" and am very very very happy/devastated that the final, or what seems to be, the final Mitch Hedberg album was released today. I had the pleasure of meeting Mitch and his wife while I was in college and I have to say, without him, I probably never would have ever tried stand up comedy in college. I am thankful I had a chance to tell him in person before it was too late.

And to everybody who takes this blog way too seriously, relax and who cares? If you dont like whats here, obviously stop reading. I still cant believe anybody would take the time to take me to task for anything thats on here. Either you like me or you dont, you like whats here or you dont. This is for me and if anyone is following the parade thats their choice. Just try not to waste any time over me in cyberspace, it's insanity to me. There are bigger things in the world than a rushed together agent blog, like global warming, the election, and the war for starters. Here is my political social commentary of the year, then Im stopping because thats not what Im here for, but if people are going to complain about me, Id rather it be for something that matters. Courtesy of the good Doctor.
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"He knew who I was, at that time, because I had a reputation as a writer. I knew he was part of the Bush dynasty. But he was nothing, he offered nothing, and he promised nothing. He had no humor. He was insignificant in every way and consequently I didn't pay much attention to him. But when he passed out in my bathtub, then I noticed him. I'd been in another room, talking to the bright people. I had to have him taken away." -on meeting George W Bush at Thompson's Super Bowl party in Houston in 1974

"All we have to do is get out and vote, while it's still legal, and we will wash those crooked warmongers out of the White House."
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Mahalo

JJ

Jeremy Jeffress Interview - For more funny videos, click here

A Friend In Need Is A Friend Indeed

It's been a busy week as usual. I think I have to go back to Milwaukee friday on short notice since our newest client was just named the Brewers Minor League Pitcher of the Year. I was there last year with Taylor Green, and it was an absolute blast! And thats the second big news of the week, we signed Jeremy Jeffress. I have scouted JJ since he was 15, so naturally we're excited he's made this decision. I am quite thankful for the opportunity and I'm going to do all I can as usual to take care of him. Big week, Montz to the show and JJ to Mil for a day.

Also pretty sure about the PTBNL in the CC trade, so much so I informed the player today. Wont be announced until after the world series, or at least that is my understanding.

Mahalo

J

There's Always Room In Life For This

Luke Montz got called up to the big leagues. It's nice to have mild relevance again. I am so happy for Luke. From the time I have known Luke he has always been one of the most sincere and nicest players I have ever met in my career. This really could not have happened to a better person, and considering where he's come from, it's hard not to root for a guy like Luke Montz. Thank god he's finally there.

Update later I hope

Mahalo

J

Urgent Like The First Day Of May

Im back home from Huntsville finally. Totally exhausted, but beyond excited that the regular season is almost over. The job doesnt end there for me however. Working on the 09 draft (eventually), finding winter ball spots for our clients, booking my trip to the arizona fall league, and of course the usual day to day stuff like finding endorsements. I cannot wait til the winter meetings this year (in Las Vegas, awesome) but more than anything I am hopeful for a day or two off from travel.

My trip to Huntsville was fantastic. I got to see Mike Brantley do his thing, Omar Aguilar K 6 of 7 batters he faced, Patrick Ryan didnt get to pitch while Lorenzo Cain is done for the season. I also got to visit with Chris Mobley, Jeff Gogal, Todd Doolittle and Andy Jenkins of the marlins which was great. I had a fun time with all the guys and got to see them all one last time before the off season hits.

I ended up playing cards with Omar,Patrick and a couple other players from the stars the last night I was there. I went all in heads up against Patrick Ryan with Ace 10. I had him dominated pre-flop, he turns over an Ace 9 and freaking hit a 9 on the flop. I was not happy at all. Then about an hour later I have a king high straight, go all in again, Omar has ace high straight. Two suck outs in one night is not good. If you see them ever, please bring to their attention how pissed off I still am at that.

The travel was a pain to Huntsville as well. Went through memphis there and back on an insanely small plane. Not good, not good at all.

Had a meaninglss fantasy draft today (I dont really play fantasy sports, too close to real life for me) I picked 12th and 13th overall and got Larry Johnson and Tony Romo. No one cares I know I know.

Will have some insanely big news sometime this week. So stay tuned. Off to tallahassee florida for the weekend to help my intern get set up.

Also for what it's worth, play the music clip while reading these blogs, it help sets the mood, or at least kinda reveal where my heads at if anyone cares.

Res Ipsa Loquitur and thank you

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The End Is The Begining Is The End

Been super busy lately so I havent had time to write. All apologies. JC Sulbaran pitched for the Netherlands against Cuba in the Olympics the other day. It was such an amazing experience watching one of our guys throw on such a huge stage. He ended up with 4 2/3 6 k's against a vastly more experienced ball club. I cant wait to see how he does in pro ball.

Adrian Nieto has gotten off to a good start in the GCL for the Nationals. I know they're excited to have him and he is very excited to be there. I also ended up getting him all 4 major card deals so be on the look out for your new Adrian Nieto trading cards one of these days....

Im headed to huntsville tomorrow to see my marlins/brewers guys one more time before the season ends. Im glad the hurricane that passed over here is over and done with. What a waste of time. I hate nature sometimes but what can you do? And on a random note Mike Brantley, Omar Aguilar, Barret Browning, and Todd Doolittle all were named to Arizona Fall League rosters so congratulations to them.

Only thing left is for the season to end and for the Indians to pick their PTBNL already. At least Ive still got a secret.


Mahalo

J

I've Been Waiting For You

Well the Reds finally got it done today and got Juancarlos Sulbaran signed today. JC Got 500k plus school and the chance to play in the WBC. It's a great opportunity for JC and his family, but I suppose more to the point, a major coup for the Reds. JC as things stand now, is the Reds highest paid draft pick despite going in the 30th round. We expect big things from JC, he's pitching saturday against china in the olympics, and after that he returns stateside I believe. I'm relieved all the negotiating is over.

It's nice to have a couple of major deals to your name. Nieto and Sulbaran got major contract and it's a relieving feeling to not have to coast on potential anymore. In a way I feel like I myself have arrived somewhat and the best is yet to come.

Brent Brewer is amazing. He makes a game saving play the other night, then the following ab hits a walkoff then today hits another bomb and had three or four hits. He's a special guy and I cant believe anyone would doubt his ability.

Saw Brevard play today as per usual. Green/Chappy on the DL so only Brewer played. Staying at the team hotel. Nieto has his first game tomorrow. Those are the updates

Mahalo

J

This Is The First Day Of My Life

I stayed up until three in the morning to go to the airport to pickup my father who was coming back from the players association meetings in new york last night. Thats all well and good since I usually stay up until three am anyway however on this special occasion I had the great pleasure of waking up at six in the freaking morning because I had a spur of the moment road trip planned to go take Adrian Nieto to Melbourne for his first day as a professional. I picked up Adrian where it all began for us (American Heritage, not cuba) and away we went. The drive was about 180 miles but seemed to go rather quickly. We talked at length about what the future might hold and how today probably would go. It was one of those rare moments where you can actual watch a player transition right in front of your very eyes in the matter of a few moments. Before we walked in to the facility he was still just the kid I knew from AHS, and after he goes through those doors, he's property of the Nationals. And like that, his career has begun. Hilariously, I am almost certain the people in the front office had a real hard time accepting that I was the guy that guy this player 376k in the 5th round. I looked half dead, sweatshirt, jeans and slightly torn nike's. I thanked them for allowing me to be there and told them to pass along a thank you note to the front office for not banning me from the facility after our negotiations. (kidding) I love getting those "what the hell?" looks from everyone in this business. Ill keep doing my thing and just keep surprising everyone each day I stay alive in this business. It's interesting watching all the reactions to say the least but what can you do?

Today Adrian took his physical and I believe if all goes well he will have his first game on thursday in Jupiter against the GCL Cardinals. We're going to dinner tonight with a few of my Brewers clients that live in Melbourne (Taylor Green, Brent Brewer, Stephen Chapman) so it's going to be nice to at least introduce him to some of our clients on the pro side of things to help make his transition go a bit more smoothly. On a business note I finished three trading card deals for him today which is always fantastic and I think I am close to a massive equipment deal. We shall see. Hopefully I have one more monster announcement before friday. And on a final note, Adrian really appreciate all the support the fans have been giving him and cant wait to show everyone what he can do.

Mahalo

J

A Savage Journey To The Heart Of The American Dream

It's better late than never, however I am very happy to announce the signing of Adrian Nieto to the Washington Nationals Baseball Club. Adrian and his family would like to thank the entire front office of the Washington Nationals including but not limited to, Dana Brown, Bob Boone, Tony Arrango, Stan Kasten, Mike Rizzo and the Lerner Family for helping this deal come to fruition. It was a long process, however Adrian looks forward to reporting to the GCL this week so he can at long last get his pro career started. This is a dream that began in Cuba for Adrian, a dream that was nurtured in the States and was able to finally come true here today. Adrians life long aspiration is to play in the Major Leagues and now that he has signed a professional contract he is one step closer to reaching his ultimate goal. I would like to commend Mike Rizzo on all of his hard work that went into getting this deal done and I look forward to Adrian and the Nationals having a long and fruitful relationship from here on out.

Thats the big news, and as a note to fans, try and keep the faith sometimes. It is a business after all. Thankfully 10 years from now nobody is going to remember how you Adrian got started, it's what he does now that matters.

Mahalo

J

No music today, a much more relevant video.

Taylor Green Video Link

Just adding this, will hopefully blog later.


http://mfile.akamai.com/14668/wmv/milb.download.akamai.com/14668/2008/atm/video/061408_fslasg_green_400.wmv

If You're Going To Be Crazy, You Have To Get Paid For It Or Else You're Going To Be Locked Up.

In another random hotel in another not so random city. Im in orlando today and actually got half a day to go to Universal Studios with the bossman. See I am human after all. On the phone most of the day as per usual especially with the draft deadline approaching. The eastcoast professional showcase was this weekend but for 1000.00 dollars to enter........ well you get the point. I would like to finish up my 2008 guys before I worry about 2009. One foot in front of the other. Also got another massive autograph deal for Lorenzo Cain this week. So awesome for him and his family. I'm happy to have helped.

Met up with Taylor Green's parents who were in from BC last night in Brevard county. What an awesome family to be around. Had dinner with Stephen Chapman, Casey Mulligan and Brian Cartie over at the local Chilli's. Brent Brewer was exhausted and of course Taylor was with family so it wasnt a big post game crowd. It was your run of the mill night in the florida state league. No amusing stories, no hilarious situations. Well, Chapman put me in a chokehold as usual but I mean come on, really? I'm 5'8 on a good day, like I ever stood a chance..... Chapman is awesome, I love that guy.

http://milwaukee.brewers.mlb.com/news/article.jsp?ymd=20080801&content_id=3235546&vkey=news_mil&fext=.jsp&c_id=mil

Thats the link to the Green story.....

An awesome article was posted on mlb.com I believe on Taylor Green. It's dead on and just a terrific story. Thats it for today.

Mahalo

J

Grandma Take Me Home

Back from San Jose then seven hours later hit the road and now Im in Vierra Florida. Im going to see the Brevard guys again for about the 700th time this season. They're semi-local so at least it makes sense. The trade deadline came and went for me quietly which is a nice relief (I dont have to travel anywhere thank god). The manny trade was good for a couple of my players. Josh Bell has one less roadblock to the show while Sean Danielson has one less OF to worry about now that Brandon Moss is gone. Hopefully both guys make the most of their opportunity (I know they will)

Spent three quality days with Darren in SF. I enjoyed helping him get setup out there. It's one of those things that doesnt come with the job description but it's important to adapt with what the job brings you. We went to the local mall where someone in the Giants team store recognized him. He signed a ball for the guy and that was that. It's an interesting experience watching someone grow up and become "known" right in front of your eyes. Darren is a long way away from celebrity but this is one of those awkward first steps. Enjoy anonymity while it lasts, once it's gone it's gone for good.

Tired as hell which is to be expected. Im a walking zombie. Ill update again when I can with hopefully a better story or five. Anything worth doing is worth doing right.


Mahalo

J

All Of Life Is A Foreign Country.

Took me seven hours to get to San Jose yesterday. I have nothing against seeing America. I have nothing against traveling, but I swear, as much as I absolutely loathe airports, Atlanta's will always have a special place in my heart. I hate the underground terminal bus, I hate then 5 terminals, I hate the pay for play wi-fi, I hate the restaurants, and I especially hate the international terminal and the thirteen mile security checkpoint. It can't be this hard in this day in age to screen people. My god....

Spent all of today catching up with some paper work. I accidentally booked my flight a day before SJ came back home so I was locked in my hotel doing work, making calls, watching Dark Knight clips and listening to Nirvana. Once again I finalized another baseball card deal and my father got one of our guys a job playing winter ball in puerto rico. It's a long process landing guys winter ball jobs, but my father nailed he. He got said player a free apt, free car, and a massive salary. Well done.

Still doing 08 draft work for the two holdouts we're advising. At least we'll know one way or the other aug. 15th. I am also going to the east coast pro showcase next week. The best of the best are usually there so hopefully all goes well and I find somebody worthwhile for the 09 draft. We never try to land too many guys in the draft each year just because of how time consuming that process is. The real money is in the big leagues, so any agent trying to make a fortune out of the draft wont be an agent real long.

Thats about it today. Seeing Darren Ford tomorrow and tuesday then back home wed. At least Ill miss Atlanta on the way back.


Mahalo

J

And As I Climb Into An Empty Bed Oh Well Enough Said

Just got home at 2:38 in the morning from a game in Jupiter today. Watched Brevard play for the first time since Lorenzo Cain was promoted and Darren Ford was traded. I had dinner with Stephen Chapman and Taylor Green, Brent Brewer couldnt go because his mother was in town. I also go to see stephen Chapmans' parents which is always nice.

Working hard right now on some interesting draft stuff. If it works, it will reshape the way things are. If it doesnt.... well it's worthless and things stay the same.

Got a call at 3 am from a phillies prospect who we represent last night. We just recently signed him and he wanted to see for himself if I really would answer on the first ring. Well I did and I guess I still have my job. Awesome.


One client was involved in that massive brawl tonight, still waiting to hear from him and what his role was there. Sean Danielson hit a bomb today which is always awesome. Nick Francis got promoted and is playing great this year. I am so proud of him especially after all he has overcome in his life. He is one to root for, thats for sure.

Also finished off a couple more autograph deals. Im on fire this year off the field.

Thats it. Off to san jose saturday, orlando friday, brevard sunday, then home monday. I need a vacation.






Mahalo

J

So I Wait For Confirmation That You're Never Gonna Use Your Starting Gun

I finally just got home at 4:15 in the morning. Had dinner with clients that were in town, me a couple of parents, and kept the phone on call as per usual the whole night. Dealing with international UFA related business and again as usual following up with the regular work stuff. Finished another autograph deal today, thats like 30 on the year which shatters my old record and I still have several months to go. In talks with an autograph company in hopes of having them sell off all of our players game used equipment and lastly booking my flgiht to go see Darren Ford out in California.

Darren is with a host family out in SJ which should be good for him since it will likely help him get adjusted out there. I know his teammates he left behind in Brevard (and all over the MIL org) miss him very much but at least he knows that the group of guys he grew to accept as family werent just fair weather friends. That has to be rewarding for him.

There is a reason I go to bed at 4 am each day and it isnt for anything howard hughesish...... I always want my guys to know, no matter where they are, especially the west coast guys, that they can call me when their games are over just to talk. I never want them to feel like it's a huge imposition on my life style and I never want them to feel like they're bothering me either. I just try to do my job the way I think my job should be to the very best of my abilities each and everyday. Off to some more games tomorrow followed by a flood of phone calls, a dash of emails, a slow crawl into bed and if my brain permits another rant.

Mahalo

J

My Interest Is In the Future Because I Am Going To Spend The Rest Of My Life There

Today was another busy day on the trail. Once again another one of my prospects was involved in a major league trade. Ray Durham was traded to the brewers today for a pitching prospect and my client Darren Ford. I know Darren is going to a situation that is potentially better for his career but it doesnt make it any less jarring for him. The relationships he has built with his teammates over the last few years are priceless and hopefully last a lifetime. Not to mention that the Brewers are the team that gave Darren his first opportunity to play professional baseball. I know he will always be thankful that the Brewers gave him his chance.

I remember when I was first scouting Darren at Chipola JC while he was under control of the Brewers. They were playing TCC who had a raw leadoff hitter/centerfielder named Lorenzo Cain. At the time, the two had very similar games, however Darrens speed game couldnt be matched by anyone (and still cant in my opinion) The two were bitter rivals in college but after signing the two became the very best of friends in pro ball. It is going to be very strange not having that pair together anymore, and I know it is going to be hard at first for both of them. Thankfully Darren will still have ST in Arizona and of course there is the offseason. Their friendship has transcended baseball and I know both will be close for a very long time. When a player is traded for the first time it really reaffirms that this game is in fact a business and very far away from the sandlot games of childhood. Darren is excited about this opportunity and I know he will do everything in his power to take full advantage of it. I cant wait.


Mahalo

J

Go And Youll Go Real Far Just Past The Big Quasar Cant Hitch A Meteorite Into The white

Hold your breath and count to ten just fall apart and start again. It has become a process more than anything at this point. It's a highly regimented chaos that mixes equal parts anger and drive. The animosity fuels everything while the general contempt completes it. For as unique and specialized this all is, it is still just a process. A plan for almost everything for any given situation. What better way to do things??

I do not think I could work in a work doing something more traditional but enough about that. The usual arrived early this week. Hit the road, go to games, go to a chain eatery and go to bed. Wake up 7 times, fall asleep 7 times, then repeat. It's such a hard feeling to describe. Exhausted isnt the word because Im not tired of working, but maybe Im just happy.

Close to landing a big leaguer to be named later and signed a couple of minor league all stars to be named later. Watched a AAA client throw 100 mph on ESPN then give up a bomb. It happens, as everyone readily knows it's just a game of failure, thats all. Nothing personal

Saw Dark Knight yesterday. Flawless and tragic. I wont even comment. Just brilliant

I have also had a tremendously good laugh about the low level of relevancy this blog enjoyed last week. How anyone could treat this as a baseball tool is beyond me. I had been sent a few links by friends/clients that actually had people mentioning me and the blog. I cant believe anyone cares, this setup here is only a play by play and to be honest not that interesting. Im sure I come off as some kind of adjective out there but I am not writing here to win a Pulitzer or find jimmy hoffa. This place allows me an opportunity to continue writing. I do write for myself because I enjoy doing so, however at the same time I suppose at least 3 of you out there read this so I should keep it consistent I guess. I have always prided myself on being able to just throwing myself out there and then just sit back and wait to see what happens. Good or bad, it's what I am most comfortable with. I grew up during the internet generation so I have always figured there could be someway to tie messageboards/blogs/tv etc.... to baseball. It's your basic viral marketing campaign but none of it is disingenuous. Everything I have said is exactly how I think things should be, so there isnt a lot of pretension (at least I hope not). I am still unsure how I am going to move forward with the blog for now. Everyone in the media that I am close with think I should stop since this blog could only hurt me. However, at the same time, at it's core, it's just me venting. Just like the fans who vented on several message boards about me (which I have to say was absolutely awesome, so thank you) I am now painfully aware of the downsides more than ever. So with that being the case I have pressed on doing my own thing on my own terms. If I had to do this any differently I wouldnt do it at all.


Thats it for the ranting again, now back to work.

Mahalo

All in all I lift cement

They Want You Or They Dont, Say Yes.

So it's 2 am and im another random double tree or quadrouple tree hotel in another nameless city (DC) and im not even in a state this time. Im going home in the morning then packing my bags for North Carolina for the lovely Southern League all star game. I had a great dinner meeting with a nameless major leaguer, his mom, and his brother tonight. The meeting went well and I might get hired so we'll see.

Luis Pena got named to the PCL all star game thats going to be on ESPN2. Good for him, he deserves it and has been pitching brilliantly this season. He's only a phone call away from MIL.

Still dealing with a certain team regarding a certain draft pick. I certainly dont think the certain team is signing the certain player. I hope im wrong.

I really love playing the guitar. I also love singing and writing my own music. I also know that even though I seem to be able to write catchy hooks I will never be a good singer. I miss Nirvana.

Light night, no trades, watched games, checked box scores, called the guys and am on the road.


All in all I lift cement

Mahalo

J

Forever In Debt To Your Priceless Advice

Im in Georgia today, got here yesterday and am leaving in about 15 hours. We're representing a top Vz pitcher 16 year old free agent Alving Mejias. He throws in about 7 hours then Ill have about a month to sell him off to the highest bidder. Is there anything more American than that? God bless free agency.

Still dealing with the blow back from the PTBNL fiasco. Still waiting, still like the rest of you, still dont know anything for certain. It's something every agent I would imagine has to come to accept that in reality, you can only control so much, but in the end, the teams still do what they want. It's their business and their absolute right to do so, but it doesnt make it any easier to live with on a human level.

Ive done a great deal of interviews this week which has been a bit of a surprise. This blog even got quoted at one point which was kind of a reality check for me. It's nice I havent said anything too stupid on here and all my work to keep things clean for the most part have paid off. Anything I can do to help the players get their name out there more is good for everyone. That is not the only reason I write here though. I obviously do a lot of this for myself. I love to write, always have, and yet when I left school I never had a reason to keep doing it. This allows me to continue a love of mine and I will never take that forgranted. People can use this as a source but it's always going to be easier to call me. It is what it is I suppose.

Also dealing with some "professionalism" questions this week. You know what I have to say to all that? Fine. It's 2008 and everyone has a way of running their business and doing their job. Ive seen other agents. I dont want to become what they are. I dont want to lose the human element of my career. I choose to be the way I am, completely out there, and totally accessible. Other agents can say they do things a certain way or claim they want to start an agency that is like a family but 99.9 percent of the time its total BS. I know how deep I get into my players lives and I wouldnt change a thing. Ive been fired before and Ive cried over losing a player before and it had absolutely nothnig to do with the money. When you lose a client in this business and you care about the player and the family as much as I do you should be upset over it. Time heals everything and you learn from each experience obviously but the hurt never goes away because in some small way it's still a reflection of you as a person. And to blindly steal again from someone much more poetic than I could ever dream to be, the great elliott smith, who I previously quoted in this blog.....

"but they can't be people
not if I'm one
if i have to be like them
i'd rather be no one"

Thats what I think about other "professionals" in this business. Not everyone wants to be Jerry Maguire or Bob Sugar. I am totally comfortable being me and I wouldnt change it for the world.

All in all I lift cement

Mahalo

J

And This I Know His Teeth Is White As Snow

Today was normal. Today was fine. Today is everyday thats on my mind.

Normal day of work but the downside of any normal day in this business is that it always comes with a darkside twist. Made phone calls, did endorsement bs, listened to games, talked to clients, checked box scores, talked to more clients all in preparation for my inevitable doom that is coming this week. Tomorrow I am going to georgia, thursday I come home, friday I go to DC saturday I come home and sunday I go to north carolina and monday I come home. Nice life. It's going to be insane since I hate flying but its better than anything else I have going on.

Lots of trade questions still out there. I issued this today so whoever feels the need to use it go for it.......

"As of right now both Taylor Green and Michael Brantley are both members of the Milwaukee Brewers organization and could not be happier with their respective situations. Michael and Taylor are both working very hard to achieve their lifelong goal of reaching the major leagues and will do everything the Milwaukee Brewers ask of them. There have been many rumors circulating lately that both players could be involved in the CC Sabathia/Matt Laporta trade. As of right now, nobody from either organization has contacted Michael or Taylor with regard to that transaction and until we hear otherwise both will continue to work as hard as possible for the Milwaukee Brewers. Michael is very much looking forward to playing in the Southern League All Star game this weekend while Taylor looks to build upon his strong first half in the Florida State League.

Thank You

Sincerely,

Joshua A. Kusnick'

We're still in limbo but whatever happens we will deal.

Im off to Georgia

All in all I lift cement

Mahalo


J

Mixing it up today.

Things Have Never Been So Swell And I Have Failed to Feel Pain, You Know You're Right

Well, as predicted last night has bleed into today. When it bleeds it pours. It's the reddest of seas and it is really bothersome. Just once can't a day be easy???? If it was easy everyone would do it. The hard parts tend to be the best but they are still bothersome none the less.

I have heard 500 rumors involving 500 players and anything I thought I knew before doesn't seem so relevant right about now. As things stand now, I can no longer be 100percent sure Mike Brantley is off the table with regard to the PTBNL in the CC Sabathia trade. I was certain he was off the table but sadly the information I relied upon seems to have turned out to be bogus, which is not the fault of my source. It is just the way the business is. Things are influx until they are final, everything is static, everything can fall apart at any time. As things stand right now it is my understanding that the Indians have two deadlines in which to select one of two players (Michael Brantley and Taylor Green). If this ends up being the case it would defy all logic I have established in my own head. I have never seen a trade in which a couple of tradable assets remain in play for a prolonged period of time. I could understand if it was a newly drafted player who could not be traded but I suppose now armed with this new information that the Indians need more time to scout both players and the Brewers were more than accommodating which is understandable. I feel bad for the players for not knowing their fates but it is a valuable lesson for them that should serve them well during their hopefully long careers. No matter how you cut it this is a bottom lines business that transcends the childhood love of the game. It's sad but it's true.

On an unrelated note I am still waiting for our last kid we are advising to sign. Negotiations are on going no real news there.

I also am going to the Southern League all star game to see Patrick Ryan, Chris Mobley and MAYBE Michael Brantley. All star games are always a great time so if anyone is there feel free to hit me up.

All in all I lift cement

Mahalo

J

Without You I'm Nothing

This was without a doubt one of the most annoying and frustrating days I have ever had in my entire career. The sad part is, if the word sad is even applicable here, is that this day is going to drag into tomorrow and possibly even longer. I literally spent the whole F**king day on the phone from 10 am until now (11:45 pm). I have talked to every media outlet alive and probably was the primary source on many stories I havent even read. I am beyond annoyed but whatever life goes on. This has gone on all weekend to. For those not in the know, the Brewers evidently have traded for CC Sabathia and have included 3 or 4 prospects depending on who you ask. I knew about all this on thursday and heard rumors that a few of my clients could be involved in the trade. Lorenzo Cain, who I thought was going to get traded ended up getting promoted. That happened pretty early today so his suspense ended some 7 hours ago. The next client I thought could get dealt was Michael Brantley, but I was told by good sources that I trust that he was not ever up for discussion so problem solved there. Luis Pena's name came up in conversation a few times but I didnt think there was anyway the brewers would get rid of a guy whose rights they would control for some time. Now comes the annoying part........

Taylor Green. An absolutely special baseball player and even better person has been the focal point of almost 99 percent of the trade rumors. Taylor has not been informed he has been traded nor has he been informed that he is any part of a pending transaction. What does all that mean? Nothing, because if the Brewers drop the PTBNL bomb anyone can go including Taylor. I know everyone in the game is an adult and I know it's a business but you would think maybe someone in the entire organization could let Taylor know what his status is instead of letting him just float in the wind. I know what everyone is doing and what their reasons are but it still doesnt make it any easier on the player.

I cannot wait until this is all situated and everyone ends up where they are supposed to be. I think this is a bold move for the Brewers franchise but it sends a really good message to the fans that they are serious about winning this year. For the guys traded it certainly presents them with a great opportunity to get to the big leagues a little more quickly than they likely would have if they had stayed with the brewers.

So to recap---- Media rumors are usually false and tend to have one source per 50 outlets.

Taylor Green will be a superstar

Taylor Green is a Brewer as of right now

I'm tired and I am going to take a nyquil and listen to The Pixies, Placebo, Nirvana and watch fight club.

Oh yeah and I will keep my cell on so this hell of a day can continue til tomorrow and bleed into forever.


Keep fighting the good fight, at worst you will prevail

Mahalo

J



Free Gift of the night, this is how I feel right now.

39 On The Line

This is my 39th post thus the apt title. Im in Jacksonville right now after being in miami last night then back to ft lauderdale in the morning. Patrick Ryan, our newest Brewers client made the Southern League all star game with Michael Brantley (and other DDSM client Chris Mobley) this week. Patrick, an avid baseball card collector also got the thrill of a lifetime when I was able to get him his first baseball card deal with donruss. He will be autographing cards for the company as well and will be the 3rd brewer/ddsm client in the set, (taylor green and Brent Brewer). Sometimes its the little things that makes the players the happiest. I cant even imagine what its like to have a card like that, so lets just pray that a company doesnt go crazy and make agent cards one day....

I had dinner with a major league player last night in hopes of landing him. He is without representation and I think it went pretty well, or as well as can be. He's a terrific guy and has a bright future with or without me. Im supposed to fly up to meet his parents next week so hopefully that goes well.

Still negotiating for our one client left who is holding out. Everything is static and nothing with change until August 15th, I can feel it.

Other random musing of the night........ I saw the movie wanted last week and I dont think I have seen a worse film since I saw fraility. I hated every second of the movie sans angelina. On a seperate note, I dont think I have been so excited to see an upcoming film since the last matrix movie (which is a total bomb). The new batman film is gettin oscar buzz and it is really all about Heath Ledger at this point. All signs point to his performance as the Joker as being one for the ages. I really hope it pans out and he gets a postumous oscar. What a terrific talent tragically cut short.

Ill keep posting as I can.


Res Ipsa something something

Mahalo

J



RARE NEW TRAILER

An Argument Is Valid If And Only If It Is Not Possible For The Premises All To Be True And The Conclusion False.

I havent said anything in a while but it's not because im out of words. Ive been very busy as usual but such is the life and the life distills me. Im exhausted. Im going to Jacksonville on the 2nd, home on the 3rd then who knows whats up forever. Following all the pro guys, the newly drafted guys playing for the first time, balancing the 09 scouting trips etc etc. Ive taken the time to stay up late to learn the guitar which makes me exceedingly happy. I havent been able to have any modicum of a social life for what seems an eternity at this point. No going out, no parties, no drinking, no girls, no concerts, nothing but the job. Thats fine since like I always say it's what I signed up for. Im still fighting with random hypocritical west coast agents that claim to be saintly when in essence they're bastards like the rest of them. Its the pretension that you never get used to. Everyone does what they have to do to survive and I accept that in this business. Its the people that try to spin their job in a different light so it helps them sleep better are the ones I despise. Call it what it is and just accept it. Thats the rant of the day.

If you love your life do not go see the movie wanted. It has shot to the top of my worst movies of all time list, a not so exclusive list that included boondock saints and frailty.....

Chris Dennis and Cam Robulack got off to good starts. I love Canadian players. Im still super annoyed Taylor Green did not make the futures game but what can you do??

Signed another brewers player.... Patrick Ryan. Awesome

those are the updates for better and worse

See you soon

Mahalo

J

Somebody Said That They're Not Much Like I Am I know I can

I am back home for a couple of days. I was in Jacksonville to see Mike Brantley as earlier noted then off to Viera for the FSL all star game. Its always an event I like to attend because its close to home and I usually have a guy or two playing in it. This year was Darren Ford and Taylor Green's turn. Got the chance to spend some great time with all my Brevard guys in addition to meeting some players parents for the first time. All in all it was a great event. Taylor hit 11 jacks in the derby while Ford got a couple of hits. Im glad I am home.

On a gut wrenching note our agency released a client today. Let me stress this was a very hard decision. He was a great hard working young kid when we signed him. He still has a chance to play in the major leagues one day but his mouth and his desire got him in trouble. This player quit on his team twice this year and started bad mouthing the agency that represented him. I loved him as a person but from a business standpoint its a no go.

Thats about it.

Mahalo

J

I'm Not The Only One

Desolation. I'm in another hotel room. The same hotel room Im always in. It's pure desolation and it cannot be understated how boring this room has become. I know the familiar bed with the familiar drapes and the familiar broken air conditioner and familiar remote control that links me to 400 broken channels of the same benign minutia on the same broken television. I get tired of it all sometimes but I remember on occasion I still get to do something not many people get to do. I affect peoples lives and that my friends can be a very good thing.

The draft was this past week and as usual was a total pain. Things went awry from the get go but we have plans for these kinds of things. Everything is going to plan at this point and hopefully we get our kids signed.

I am in Jacksonville going to watch Michael Brantley play. He's so underrated. He's going to be the kid who gets to the big leagues and everyone wonders how they could have missed him. Lorenzo Cain and Lorenzo Scott both got pushed to AAA this week. Good week for DDSM clients named Lorenzo I guess.

The fsl all star game is saturday and I am going to that for sure. I cant wait til the after party which is always a fantastic time. Taylor Green and Darren Ford will be there and I couldnt be prouder.

Signed Kristian Bueno of the Brewers finally. It took a while but we're very excited to have him. Great kid and great family.

Thats the news. Ill try to be better and posting again. Thanks for reading

Mahalo

J

I Have Always Failed To Fail

Ma nishtana ha lyla ha zeh mikkol hallaylot?

Why is this night different from every other night?

Im about 15 hours to one of the biggest days of the year. Draft day is upon me and I charge towards it with ferocious tenacity. If I could tackle it I would. If I could just throw it to the floor and kick it's still beating teeth in I would. If I could somehow harm it I would find a way to do it. Unfortunately I have to live with it and just roll with whatever punches come at me with no other adequate defense other than talking. Talking, talking and much more talking. All the prep work is finished and either I tomorrow will be a triumph or the start of damage control. I am prepared either way. I have done all I can in the ways of prep work. Tomorrow is a big day. Tomorrow is where dreams are made and crushed. Where careers are started and ended. Where money is exchanged, where tears flow, where children playing a kids game cry for joy or elation. It's what I live for and I cant wait.

I Laughed Until My Head Came Off, I Swallowed Til I Burst

We're about two days away from the big day. This is when the fun happens. This is where it starts. This is where it ends. And for some, this is where it just begins. Some will flame out early, some will flame out late, and some will being shooting stars that illuminate the twilights. It's exciting and stressful at the same time. All the careful work will have either paid off or failed by thursday. I know I have done a good job. The biggest name player I have advised this year has been on the cover of baseball america, scout.com, mlb.com, and pgcrosschecker.com An "advisor" cant determine where a player gets drafted nor can he promise anything of tangible value. All you can do is help facilitate the process and help the family as best he can by giving good advice. I have done the best I can to help my clients and hopefully I have put them in a better situation than they were before they met me. I am the bridge between the family and information and from the player to the team in some cases. I hope this time it pays off.

I got some good news this week. Taylor Green and Darren Ford were named to the FSL all star game while Mike Durant was named to the SAL all star game. Ill be at the fsl one while I will try to attend the sally league game. Congrats to all three of them.

Random aside, I got to meet Jeffery Ross this past weekend at the hardrock casino. My life is awesome.

I will be chatting on Brewerfan.net sometime on draft day so if you have any questions Ill see you there.

Mahalo

J

To Be Is To Do

I'm back home. Mildly refreshed with a side of disillusionment. Im exhausted but I'm actually quite tired of that feeling. I'm looking forward to better feelings. I think I can see them already.....


Stephen Chapman hit his 7th home run of the season. I told chappy Id give him 500.00 dollars if he hit 10 in Brevard. Don't underestimate this man. He will play in the big leagues. Taylor Green hit his 4th home run of the season. Not only is Taylor an exception hitter (obvious) He is a very very special defender (not obvious). I have seen him make play after play at 3b so I can only imagine if he is ever moved back to second base how much he'll flourish.

On an overflowing with awesome note, I got to watch Luis Pena pitch on TV tonight. For some reason the Memphis Nashville game was one and I got to watch Luis..... Allow a run, walk a guy, then get out of the Jam in the most awesome of fashion. He K'd the last hitter to end the inning, proceeded to do this amazing fist pump which was part ray lewis part Joba Chamberlin and then get into a shouting match with the player he had just K'd. It was baseball at its absolute finest. I called Luis after the game to talk about it and he had no idea how hilarious it was. Let me assure you, it was hilarious.

I go to go to the FACA all star game in Sebring (time consuming but important) and then headed to St Lucie for the mets pre draft workout. I usually shy away from workouts as a whole but there were some monetary considerations that enticed me to advise our client to go there. We'll see if I was right but I am never going to a workout again. The worst thing I saw there was a 2009 draft prospect. As a whole, and this is the free advice of the day. NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER send an underclassman to a predraft workout. No good can come of it and any advisor who suggests going to one needs to be fired, dragged to the streets by an angry torch carrying mob, and beaten worse than reginald denny. It upsets me that these kids get taken advantage of at such a young age but what can you do? I can only continue to do my job the way it makes sense to me. If people hire me, great, if not, theres always tomorrow.

Mahalo

J

No Price Is Too High To Pay For The Privilege Of Owning Yourself.

May is taking forever this year. I have been on the road, I have been on my bed, I have been everyone it seems instead. I'm exhausted beyond belief. I am satisfied I survived my road trip. By the time I hit Nevada for round two I came down with a very bad sickness. I am still not sure what it is but it's nagging for sure. The day I got back I slept in bed all day then hit the road in the morning to watch my HS in the state championship up in Sarasota. The first game a player our firm is advising dominated and the second day another player we're advising exploded for two home runs and two pickoffs (he's a catcher). Tomorrow I am on the road again to Seabring Florida for the FACA all star game where both players will be playing in front of scouts for the last time before the draft. We're almost at the finish line and I think everything is going to plan.

We've had some injuries to our pro guys this month which has been disappointing. A few guys have been shuffled around but thankfully nobody was dropped. It's been a good year so far.

I havent commented on this yet publicly so I may as well do it here. We had a player get a 50 game suspension for failing an mlb drug test. It's been difficult to deal with it because you're not really sure how you're supposed to feel. Should I have known? Is it my fault for not knowing? I certainly was not ignoring anything and I didnt have a hand in it but I will do everything I can to get this kid better. He has apologized to his team and to me but its going to be a very big career obstacle to overcome now. I hope he figures it out because I do know he's sorry. And not just sorry for getting caught, sorry for doing it in the first place.

Thats all for now, will try to update more this week on the road

Mahalo

J

PS Go see the new Indiana Jones movie and... here is a clip from the radiohead show I was at.